I'm addicted to being useful

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147 points | by swah 4 hours ago

28 comments

  • tclancy 2 hours ago
    > I don’t mind the ways in which my job is dysfunctional, because it matches the ways in which I myself am dysfunctional

    As a fellow traveller, I offer one caution: learn to turn this down in personal relationships as it can be counterproductive. It took decades for my wife to finally get through and explain not every problem she voices is something that needs a solution. Some times people just want to be heard. It bugs the hell out of me because I tend to need to solve All The Problems before I can do any self-care, but rather than seem heroic, I think this attitude can seem transactional or uncaring as though everyone is just a screw that needed a bit of tightening, etc.

    • n4r9 1 hour ago
      I frame it not as turning a dial down, but as switching channel from practical problem-solver to emotional problem-solver.

      Often when someone wants to talk about a situation involving difficult feelings, they're actually trying to process those feelings: to understand where the feelings are coming from, to be validated, and to be able to take a broader perspective.

      You can help by being curious about what they're saying, reflecting it back to them in your own terms, explaining how what they're feeling is understandable, and offering context or alternative viewpoints. These are actually complex problem-solving skills, although they can all fall under the umbrella of what people mean when they say "to be heard".

      As a man, I've realised that once my emotions feel validated and accepted, I relax and the practical solutions just pop into my mind.

      • thisislife2 1 hour ago
        > switching channel from practical problem-solver to emotional problem-solver

        Thank you for this useful tip! I've recently become aware that I may not be as good a listener I thought I was - I too make the common mistake of immediately offering solutions, or talking too much about my own relatable situations and feelings, instead of trying to really listen to them and help them figure out their own world view and feelings of a particular situation (and thus understand them better too in the process).

      • Aurornis 1 hour ago
        > they're actually trying to process those feelings: to understand where the feelings are coming from, to be validated, and to be able to take a broader perspective.

        If you’re speaking to a rational person with good intentions and good self-management this can help a lot.

        If the other person doesn’t have good emotional regulation and is prone to catastrophizing, exaggeration, or excessive self-victimization then validating and reinforcing their emotions isn’t always helpful. It can be harmful.

        I know this goes against the Reddit-style relationship stereotype where the man must always listen and nod but not offer suggestions, but when someone is prone to self-destructive emotional thought loops behind their emotional validator can be actively harmful. Even if validation is what they seek and want.

        • n4r9 50 minutes ago
          It can be a challenging skill to apply, and you need to use your judgement to discern whether the other person is in a place to engage with what you say.

          One comment I'd make is the difference between "valid" and "rational". Emotions and feelings are always "valid", in the sense that they are a natural consequence of events and prior conditioning. But feelings are rarely "rational" - they often don't reflect the complete truth of a situation. For example, suppose someone says "Jennifer sent me this short snippy reply today, I swear she's upset with me about something and won't tell me what it is". It is perfectly legitimate to validate that you can see where that fear comes from, but nevertheless offer alternative possibilites: maybe Jennifer is going through a tough time personally, or has a really tight work schedule at the moment. You don't have to fully buy into someone's thoughts and feelings in order to help them process them. In fact this is rarely going to help.

          • Aurornis 32 minutes ago
            > Emotions and feelings are always "valid", in the sense that they are a natural consequence of events and prior conditioning.

            If “validating” someone’s emotions comes down to simply saying that, yes, I agree you felt that way, then I suppose that’s true.

            But when people talk about validating other people’s emotions it implies that they’re saying the emotional response was valid for the circumstances.

            I have someone in my extended family who has a strong tendency to catastrophize and assume the worst. When she was in a relationship with someone who constantly validated her emotions and reactions it was disastrous. It took someone more level headed to start telling her when her reactions were not valid to certain situations to begin stabilizing the behavior.

            There’s a hand wavey, feel good idea where we’re supposed to believe everyone’s lived experience and emotions are valid, but some people have problems with incorrect emotional reactions. Validating these can become reinforcing for that behavior.

            I’m not saying we should start doubting every emotional reaction or white knighting everything, but it’s unhealthy to take a stance that validating other people’s emotions is de facto good.

            • lcnPylGDnU4H9OF 8 minutes ago
              > It took someone more level headed to start telling her when her reactions were not valid to certain situations to begin stabilizing the behavior.

              I guess at the risk of splitting hairs, I think it's more likely they stopped misappropriating more than they started invalidating. I see a difference between "you shouldn't feel that way" and "I disagree with that conclusion" such that one can logically say both (well, the former being "it's okay to feel that way") in the same breath.

            • n4r9 26 minutes ago
              I quite like the definition on Wikipedia:

              > Emotional validation is a process which involves acknowledging and accepting another individual's inner emotional experience, without necessarily agreeing with or justifying it, and possibly also communicating that acceptance.

              https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emotional_validation

              It sounds perhaps like your family member's former partner was going further than validating the emotions, and trying to justify or prove them right. But this is quibbling over semantics; I think we both agree that challenging someone is sometimes the kindest thing to do.

      • dan00 52 minutes ago
        > Often when someone wants to talk about a situation involving difficult feelings, they're actually trying to process those feelings: to understand where the feelings are coming from, to be validated, and to be able to take a broader perspective.

        Right, talking about feelings is a way of regulating yourself.

        Conflicts with my wife are a lot easier if I'm able to empathize with her emotional distress, acknowledging it, instead of jumping directly into logical problem solving. If I'm only looking logically at the issue, I can't really understand the issue she is having.

        I like the view of the therapist Terry Real, that during conflicts you can either be right or stay connected. That doesn't mean that you hide your views, but that you also emotionally acknowledge the view of your partner. It's surprising how effectively this takes out the fire in conflicts.

      • funkyfiddler69 1 hour ago
        > they're actually trying to process those feelings

        Exactly, help exploring their problem, maybe direct them into one nook or the other, support a proper perspective from different angles (to a small extent within the context and constraints they provided!!!), but don't solve the riddle for them. They might not even know how they really feel about it all, yet.

      • lazide 1 hour ago
        Be careful you don’t end up with people who have constant emotional problems that need fixing - or that you’re 100% sure that you’ll never need to say ‘no’. Speaking from experience.

        Some people really don’t like ‘no’, especially when they have emotional problems.

        • Aurornis 54 minutes ago
          Another pitfall with this approach is when someone has constant emotional but irrational reactions to everything. Being the person who validates their emotions becomes harmful if they’re over-reacting or developing harmful emotional reactions and you’re always there to validate them.
          • Cthulhu_ 21 minutes ago
            If it becomes damaging to you (the person that is expected to be emotional support), "grey rocking" is the next step. Acknowledge, but don't respond. "uh huh" instead of "I am so sorry" or whatever. Don't take advice from me though.
        • n4r9 1 hour ago
          I've heard that's true; compassion and empathy can be a draw for highly insecure people. You need to balance it with assertiveness and self-regulation, which are also part of emotional intelligence.
    • Aurornis 1 hour ago
      > It took decades for my wife to finally get through and explain not every problem she voices is something that needs a solution.

      This can become toxic in itself, though. Some times venting and being angry is what someone wants to do, but in a workplace environment that’s not a good thing to implicitly condone and support.

      I’ve had some team members who just wanted to vent but not discuss solutions and (again, in a workplace, not personal relationship) it was a sign that something deeper was amiss: Being a perpetual victim of their circumstances and believing those circumstances were beyond their control was a safe, comforting place to exist. It was always easier to build up excuses that problems were thrust upon them by others, who could be held solely responsible for the results. In some cases I had to be very clear that they were responsible for working with teammates to address these issues together, not become a passive receiver of everything that happens with their peers.

      Swooping in as the hero to solve everything for someone else isn’t a good solution, but (in a workplace environment) getting someone to switch from the passive victim mindset to the active mindset of engaging with their own problems is very important.

      This is one topic where carrying advice from personal romantic relationships into the workplace isn’t a good idea, IMO.

      • tayo42 41 minutes ago
        The advice to surrive the workplace is to act like a human lol
        • Aurornis 26 minutes ago
          Treating workplace relationships with the same techniques as romantic relationships is a bad idea, IMO
    • al_borland 1 hour ago
      I learned this from the show Parks and Recreation. Ann is pregnant and trying to vent, and Chris is looking to solve all her problems. This drives her nuts.

      Clip: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdA8QNTqn-A

    • dmichulke 2 hours ago
      Good point.

      Tangentially, you could ask: Are you addicted to being useful or to being recognized as useful.

      One is your own need, the other often a covered contract where you lash out or silently resign if you don't get the recognition that you think you deserve.

      • amelius 2 hours ago
        I'm surprised nobody asks whether you're at fault here, or she is.

        Next time, maybe ask her to come up with solutions, e.g. do a brainstorm session.

        If she then says she doesn't really want a solution, you can tell her then don't phrase your issues like that.

        • krisoft 1 hour ago
          > asks whether you're at fault here, or she is

          Or maybe nobody is? Why does someone has to be “at fault”?

          > you can tell her then don't phrase your issues like that.

          Sometimes people just want to be heard. There is value in recognising that.

        • y-curious 1 hour ago
          There’s an old adage that is very important to logical people (as software engineers are, for example).

          “Do you want to be right or do you want to be happy?”

          My wife wants to throw out our perfectly functional table to get a better looking one. Financially and practically, I am right in fighting this. Is a few hundred bucks worth making someone aesthetically-minded not feel satisfied? No, you have to pick your battles.

          • pdimitar 40 minutes ago
            That really depends if you like (or are mostly indifferent to) the new table. If you hate it then it becomes a game of "who of us two is more important to satisfy with a table". Definitely not a position you want to be in.

            Relationships must be two-way streets, always.

            I have made quite a lot of concessions for my wife for the current rented flat -- simply because I did not care about 99% of the things she wanted to change. I only gave her a rather loose framework: "this must fit these physical dimensions as you yourself can see here in this corner" and "I am not willing to spend hundreds to change something that is currently performing to 90% of the standards of both of us" and "how difficult it is to ship and install this?" -- and she has been mature and considerate enough to understand the boundaries and nailed them every single time so far in our 11.5 years together. And she still got almost everything she wanted and is visibly happier with the environment.

            When both sides have preferences they feel safe sharing but are still reasonable above all, then things are going smoothly and flow naturally.

            Of course there are the rare exceptions where I just gave up and said to her: "OK, I am leaving this to you, figure all the details out and I'll just pay it at the end of the process". I was not unhappy but she did not want to budge on a few things and I ultimately just stashed the old thing in the garage in case she understands she made a bad deal or the new thing was underperforming.

            I agree strongly with "pick your battles". You have to be able to read the person in real time. It's actually much easier than most technical people think.

          • lazide 1 hour ago
            Some people have a habit of creating situations that are…. Not so easy to get out of. My favorite one essentially boiled down to ‘die die die, or I’ll kill you’.

            Which, clearly, I struggled to find a useful compromise on.

        • lazide 1 hour ago
          Pro tip - that usually just makes people angrier haha. (Source: twice divorced, and was - per the court - always right, but it didn’t help me one bit).

          The challenge is, some people (most) get stuck on some emotional thing, and will drain you dry if you try to even engage with them on it. It’s especially prevalent right now.

          • TeMPOraL 1 hour ago
            > The challenge is, some people (most) get stuck on some emotional thing, and will drain you dry if you try to even engage with them on it. It’s especially prevalent right now.

            Yup. I've long learned to suppress my problem-solver nature because "people want to be heard", but then what it gets is turning me into a sounding board for people who get stuck on something indefinitely. It's easy to not jump in with solutions the first time you hear a story, but it's much harder when you hear the exact same story, with exact same underlying emotion, dozen+ times in the span of a few months. The other side is clearly not really processing their emotions - so if not that, and not practical advice, then what's the point of even talking about it?

            It's really draining and in some cases I'm not in a position to disengage either.

            • pdimitar 34 minutes ago
              Like with everything, none of the both extremes are good.

              What helps me in situations where people talk about it for the umpteenth time is trying to drill down and find the root cause with carefully worded questions. I think I might be ready to become a therapist, lol. Though my fuse is quite short due to my own stress so I don't put myself in the "I am your emotional trash bin" kind of situations.

              So to me even the situations you describe can be made use of. Think of it as a long-running background task with many steps; after each retry you get a new exception stack trace. F.ex. during conversation #7 you might understand one or two causes of the problem but at conversation #12 you might already have a nice root cause and you can then try to gently nudge the person towards addressing that.

              Of course you are not mandated to. It's all about what you need in this current phase of life as well; you don't have to be people's therapist. It's just what I find super interesting the last year or so -- root-cause analysis of human problems.

              But when I understand that somebody just wants to whine and be a constant victim, I mentally check out. Not worth the joules that my brain would spend on that person.

            • the_af 1 hour ago
              I want to echo this.

              And there's no solution. Nothing you can do, say, or not do or say will help. Even just listening will be perceived, after the umpteenth time, as condescending; and voicing your opinion is obviously a no go. It's lose-lose.

              • saidnooneever 1 hour ago
                the solution is mutual recognition and understanding, but as a problem solver its not satisfying as you cant implement it in your own way :'D
            • bflesch 1 hour ago
              I call that "you are the garbage bin for other people's emotions". And once you realize this process you can't unsee it and re-evaluate some relationships. If it is each side taking turns being the "emotional garbage bin" then it's a healthy relationship.

              But if people only reach out to drop their toxic waste and leave you without the chance to get rid of your own toxic waste you feel not good afterwards. Like where you have conversations and then afterwards notice that you were not able to actually speak about any of your own problems and worries.

              That's what I really like about the kids and their words of the year: They used "aura" and at first I thought what a bullshit term is that, but after a while I came to understand it. It's totally fine to listen to your stomach feelings, if someone's aura is negative or their vibes are off you don't need to give them a reason why you stop interacting, you just leave.

              We've been trained to be helpful and nice to everyone but then wonder why we feel drained at the end of the day. It's because we're spending emotional bandwidth on people and things that don't give us any energy back.

              The word "aura" for all of this is extremely nice. If you see a spooky person approaching you on the street at night you also don't need to explain to them what exactly put you off about them - you just switch sides.

              I can only recommend to trust your feelings.

      • ChrisMarshallNY 1 hour ago
        In my case, I really do want to be of use. In fact, I often tend to stay well in the background, and deliberately eschew credit.

        That said, I do tend to get upset, when I’m taken for granted, but that’s really my own fault. I know it, rationally, but my inner brat still wants to throw a tantrum.

        • pdimitar 31 minutes ago
          Well if none of the measures you already tried to stop that did not work, then maybe one thing that can help you is asking yourself whether you are not feeling drained after interacting with those people?

          I, like yourself, cannot override my engineering mindset. I ALWAYS WANT TO HELP. But at one point I reframed it as an energy budget problem and how efficiently are my time and energy spent... and then it clicked.

          • ChrisMarshallNY 3 minutes ago
            I have learned to do that, but it actually makes me uncomfortable to do it.

            I'm "on the spectrum," so having people give me attention isn't really something that feels good. That's why I like working on "infrastructure" stuff (and also why I used to be a bass player[0]).

            [0] https://cmarshall.com/MulletMan.jpg (That hair was in style, back then. I no longer look like that).

    • opminion 1 hour ago
      I'm probably your wife.

      It could be related to the personality trait of how much of our world model is "in our mind" vs "out there":

      If I speak with you while working on the world model in my mind, it looks like I just "want to be heard". But your feedback is actually very important, it's just that it should only feed my mental world model.

      I am then surprised that my math coprocessor reaches for the GPIO.

    • onion2k 1 hour ago
      It took decades for my wife to finally get through and explain not every problem she voices is something that needs a solution. Some times people just want to be heard.

      I'm glad she managed to solve this problem in the end.

      ;)

    • sdoering 2 hours ago
      > I tend to need to solve All The Problems before I can do any self-care

      I can so relate. I once read something that shifted my perspective a bit and helped me start the work of learning to better care for myself.

      It was basically somebody talking/writing about the safety instructions when taking a flight. They tell you that in case of an emergency, when the o2 masks drop down to first put your ownmas on, before helping others. Because you are no help, if you loose conciousness.

      This image/metaphor , to first put my own mask on, so that I can ensure, I will be able to help others without falling over, was what helped me start this process.

      I sadly can't remember if it was Brené Brown or where I originally read that.

      • pjmorris 1 hour ago
        It's a great analogy. I first came across it in Gerald Weinberg's 'More Secrets of Consulting: The Consultant's Tool Kit', where he spends some time talking about burnout, what it means, and how to get out when you find your way in.
        • hackable_sand 1 hour ago
          For a more spiritual audience: the analogy is also widely recognized in the Bible
          • wrsh07 1 hour ago
            For what it's worth, I wanted to downvote this because it doesn't provide much additional context. Which verses? Is there a link?

            (I didn't downvote)

            Saying "oh yeah the bible mentions that" doesn't really add to a conversation - the bible mentions a lot of stuff!

            However, if I downvote you because you didn't provide context, you might misinterpret it as "wow, hacker news hates the bible" (I have no opinion on hn audience feelings towards religion)

            So for additional context, one could look up the "speck vs log" which seems most straightforwardly about taking care of your own issues first (although it's in the context of hypocrisy, which doesn't quite match the original thread iiuc)

            I found a few others, but none quite seemed like the close match I was hoping for (Mark 12:31, 1 Corinthians 6:19-20, etc)

      • lazide 1 hour ago
        One pattern I’ve noticed, however, is that if you’re really good at doing this - and the situations being created are artificial - you might run into a situation where someone cuts or poisons your oxygen mask first.

        I would have said ‘no way is someone that evil’, but uh…. Ask most men in their 40’s or 50’s.

        • darkwater 33 minutes ago
          > I would have said ‘no way is someone that evil’, but uh…. Ask most men in their 40’s or 50’s.

          WDYM with the last sentence?

        • tclancy 1 hour ago
          Buddy, this is the second comment in here where you want us to blame some unknown Other for our problems. That is a dead end. And gray hair doesn’t confer wisdom, as Thoreau said. Signed, some guy in his 50s.
          • tclancy 1 hour ago
            Sorry, my bad, fourth comment.
    • ilikecakeandpie 19 minutes ago
      I usually ask if we're chatting if my partner is looking for any feedback/solution or if she just needs to be mad. It's pretty effective
    • johnisgood 2 hours ago
      Yeah, I am still learning to not be logical and fix whatever ails her. Often she really just wants to be heard, not solutions.

      I am ~30 years old, hopefully I will be able to just hear, without offering any solutions. It bothers me too. I am a SWE because I love solving problems!

      • TeMPOraL 1 hour ago
        > It bothers me too. I am a SWE because I love solving problems!

        In my case, I've recently been wondering whether I really love solving problems, or rather just hate stupid bullshit and solving it - quickly and efficiently - is usually the best way to make it go away for good.

        In many cases, the behavior is identical - I just find myself to be motivated by frustration more often than curiosity these days.

    • p0d 1 hour ago
      Well said...I have discovered the same in my own marriage of thirty years. I would add that even bringing a good solution in a relationship can go unheard, especially if the motivation is to be the fixer, and to be honest make your own life easier by silencing the other's point of frustration.
    • amiga386 44 minutes ago
    • funkyfiddler69 1 hour ago
      > not every problem she voices is something that needs a solution

      Relatable. Is true for even the simplest problems that some people have.

      Sometimes they just didn't even address it yet and are only becoming adequately aware of it and here you are spelling out a plan of action during a 7 min encounter in the kitchen.

    • agumonkey 33 minutes ago
      could this be a difference in male/female brains ? talks implies action for men, while women want to communicate most and maybe plan to act ? just curious, it's an issue that has been mentioned everywhere all the time
      • hydrogen7800 27 minutes ago
        >could this be a difference in male/female brains ?

        Maybe socially, but I'm not sure about naturally. It took me a long time to get where the GP is, realizing that some just like to he heard rather than offered solutions. Now I notice that my family are "fixers" and any problem or difficulty is countered with "did you do this" or "you should have done that" or "why don't you.." I now realize I don't like being second guessed in a moment like that, in contrast to the gender stereotype.

        • agumonkey 14 minutes ago
          true, there are families, groups who have naturally different reaction to the same event..
    • mutkach 1 hour ago
      Super-relatable.

      Now that I think about it, most of my advice starts something like "Here's what you're gonna do..."

      Wait, that itself sounds like a problem, but how do I fix it...

    • kakacik 2 hours ago
      This is kind of typical situation with men and women right, they need their girl friend coffee complaint time, we guys need similar beer time, albeit contents vary wildly. At least what you write fits every ex-gf I dated, and also fits my guy-brain expectations and resulting type of discussions.

      Part of the setup by default, but should not take decades to discover or reveal. Similar to how women experience stuff mainly via emotions, hence what was fine yesterday may not be today albeit factually nothing changed.

      101 of each adult should be also figuring out how one works (and how doesn't) and optimizing with other relevant parties further interactions.

  • choonway 45 minutes ago
    I was like the author of the article, then I realized that I was solving problems that were created by other peoples' incompetence. Sure they were challenging, fun but they didn't bring anything postive overall. The incompetent people are still there - causing more problems.

    So I decided to find a worthwhile problem that deserved my talent. And I did. And I am now even more happy than before.

    • posed 1 minute ago
      Mind sharing what that worthwhile problem is?
  • lazarus01 1 hour ago
    It’s great to be useful as living for your purpose is the best way to achieve life satisfaction. But it’s important to establish boundaries and avoid developing codependency and not to define yourself through the perception of your acts towards others. Having a skill that helps others gives you a sense of mastery. The fact that you have this skill and apply it in good faith should be enough to establish a good sense of self without feedback from others.

    I love being an engineer and solving problems that I’m good at, which are problems too complex for most people to approach. But not everyone feels that way, some or most people don’t care or don’t understand the motivation, as they may have different motivations of their own. Learning to accept that and be confident without validation from others is very tough but possible, as you apply yourself consistently with focus and clarity, you gain a stronger sense of purpose. You are never fulfilled, but continue to pursue anyway, that is the trick I learned for myself. The trait is called equanimity and is more of a sustainable attitude vs a feeling, that is transactional. It’s easier as you get older and comes with maturity.

  • bloomingeek 1 hour ago
    I'm kind of this way also. My work motto was always: "Be the best worker and you'll always have a job." This was easy, because I was always curious about how things worked and didn't mind helping others. In my thirties, while training for a new position, I thanked my trainer for his help and he told me: "You seem willing to work and now I won't have to do your job for you." That simple statement changed how I thought about coworkers. Gradually, I became less helpful to the ones who thought it was a good idea for me to do their job with/for them.
  • bradley13 2 hours ago
    I feel the same way. I retired last summer, but that only means that I found a place that needs me, where I can work part time without worrying too much about money.

    I remember, decades ago, reading an article about some African politician visiting the UK. He was given a tour, which included some of the social housing. The UK bragging about how they took care of their people. He saw people sitting around with with their housing and food paid for. His comment? "How horrible!".

    He found it horrible, because - from his perspective - they had no role in society, nothing to do, no purpose to their existence.

    • pjc50 1 hour ago
      This is a big topic in disability rights activism; there are a lot of people who can do some work some of the time, with a certain level of accommodation, and would benefit from so doing.

      But that's not how the system works. It forces everyone into binary categorizations, with the aim of removing help if at all possible. So it becomes economically necessary for people to present themselves as helpless and stay away from work or even volunteering, because doing so jeopardizes their means of surviving the bureaucracy.

  • jebarker 32 minutes ago
    I get stuck on asking “why am I solving this problem” too much. I am surrounded by technical problems that it would give a dopamine hit to solve and I’d feel the pleasure of helping my fellow man, but 99% of them feel like they shouldn’t even exist and solving them doesn’t really lead to any meaningful progress beyond providing me job security and money. (How) do people deal with this?
    • giraffe_lady 12 minutes ago
      Deciding which problems should be solved, identifying where there is business value in solving them, is pretty much the definition of business leadership.

      I think the only real answer is moving into management, where you can more effectively argue against spending effort on things that aren't worthwhile.

  • iamflimflam1 2 hours ago
    Can definitely relate to this. But I have found that, when running a team, it can be very counter productive.

    If you constantly solve all the problems that come it can be stifling for the people you manage.

    • drekipus 2 hours ago
      I see this as "my problem is to grow these people" so I don't solve anything for them

      I think it's just a case is perspective

    • poszlem 2 hours ago
      Strongly agree with this. It may sound good in theory, but in practice, especially with real people, it can come across as overbearing, stifling, and exhausting for others. This isn’t meant as a dig at the OP. it’s just an observation based on personal experience with someone like that in my own family.

      edit: I am not critiquing enthusiasm itself, but a compulsion that can be productive and unhealthy.

  • rammy1234 30 minutes ago
    One of thing I have noticed of good software engineers is while they are trying to solve problems, they also communicate with clarity to upper management chain. The clarity they bring to the table was always appreciated and also puts them in the career growth path easily.
    • giraffe_lady 10 minutes ago
      Every good engineer is an excellent communicator. Everyone who is not an excellent communicator is not a good engineer. Everyone hates that this is true but it remains true. A lot of people are very good programmers who have mistaken that for being good engineers, however.
  • inanutshellus 25 minutes ago
    There's this British kids show called Thomas the Tank Engine (or Thomas the Train).

    Thomas's whole shtick is being a "useful engine" and that somehow really struck a chord with me.

    I always seek to be a useful engine.

  • nusl 2 hours ago
    I wonder if this sort of thing can lead to faster burnout or such. I've sorta over time leaned toward guarding my own space/time since somehow I get more tired out, and over time more burned out, if I don't.
    • Ronsenshi 2 hours ago
      I probably have a very similar "dysfunction" as OP. Can't say how it is for him, but I do get burned out somewhat regularly if I push myself too much for too long. However it usually takes few days to a week at most of low-effort activity or travel to recover.
  • hnal943 24 minutes ago
    This is a fantastic intro to the article I wanted to read, which was Sean's advice on how to best leverage this trait.
  • al_borland 1 hour ago
    I was this way for a long time at work. A re-org and management change broke me. It's been very hard to get motivated these days. I want it to be like it was, but I'm starting to think there is no going back.
    • clircle 1 hour ago
      You need a new job to feel energized again (and so do I)
  • myself248 2 hours ago
    If this resonates with you, I highly recommend picking up a copy of Tracy Kidder's 1981 novel The Soul of a New Machine. You'll be hooked by the end of the introduction.
    • tclancy 2 hours ago
      And if you like that, the good news is you will probably like most every Kidder book. Or at least House. His works tend to be inquiries into how systems work, just at different scales.
  • harryday 2 hours ago
    Help is the sunny side of control.
    • Ronsenshi 1 hour ago
      Interesting quote and certainly can apply to some people, but this behavior could also be considered as "acts of service" type of "love language". You can take any endearing and genuinely good behavior and make a toxic version out of it.
    • ambicapter 51 minutes ago
      An extremely toxic mindset.
  • vjerancrnjak 1 hour ago
    This internal compulsion is just learned behavior. The society conditions you to work instead of play.

    Nothing wrong with that, I have that compulsion as well.

    Having a compulsion to play, purely for the sake of playing is a much healthier view. Useful, not useful, hard problem, easy problem, should not matter, you're playing.

    Sometimes you can't be useful, yet you can always play.

    All stems from inability to have systems without labor. Work, work.

    I like how Pope John Paul II flipped the narrative and said work exist for the person, as a way for person to express itself. Made me realize how even communism stays trapped in labor mentality.

    • alphawhisky 35 minutes ago
      I like this thought. It is interesting to look at our current societal/economic systems on the earth and realize none of them will survive the death of scarcity.
  • mcv 39 minutes ago
    Is this not something everybody wants to some degree? Maybe not to the extreme of Akaky, but of course I like being useful. I like solving problems. I like making things that people use, and love to use.

    It's not always healthy; at my current job (started 8 months ago) I see tons of issues to fix. Some of them are explicitly mine to fix, some close enough to my area of responsibility, but some of them are well outside it. And I'm annoyed that nobody has fixed these problems, because everybody is aware that these are problems. But the entire way the organisation works, seems designed to make it as hard as possible for me to fix them.

    I'll probably burn out and leave in a few months to do something I care less about.

    • showsover 33 minutes ago
      Seeing things being broken but not being fixed is a real source of frustration. The tricky thing in my experience has been figuring out which are issues that nobody bothered to fix and which are issues that seem simple but require huge changes to fix.

      The day-to-day gets so much better when you can do a few of these fixes every so often, after a few months it really adds up when you compare to how things used to be.

    • scjon 35 minutes ago
      I think it depends on the person, I've had coworkers who struggle or don't enjoy solving problems. I enjoy solving problems at work so much that I find myself doing it on nights and weekends. I've also got an unhealthy mindset that I'm not going to let the "computer" win.
  • PlatoIsADisease 2 hours ago
    Nietzsche would approve that you are seeking power through usefulness. Even if he disdained money, he is a bit idealistic/outdated here. Hobbes says riches is a form of power.
  • Ronsenshi 2 hours ago
    I can very much relate to the OP in this. I enjoy writing code, figuring out problems, finding solutions and in general helping other people with things that require some kind of software to be created or updated. And until year or two ago I thought I'd be able to continue to do what I love while getting paid decent money for it. With the advent of vibe coding and AI I'm starting to feel less sure in the future.
    • drekipus 2 hours ago
      I feel more useful now more than anything.

      The amount of ai generated planning and fluffy workloads that I've been able to just delete from the team has saved the company many engineering hours. Not least of all in bugs.

      Value your expertise and experience. It's only greeting more valuable, not less.

      • Ronsenshi 1 hour ago
        It's great that this is a case for you.

        I actually enjoy process of writing code, understanding deeply the system I work on, finding elegant solutions to business problems - not just a list of checkboxes with features for a given sprint that agent churns in background. Sure, practically I understand that business doesn't care how well something is written as long as it works somewhat reliably. I might eventually adapt to this new horrible reality of developers who have no idea what's going on in the codebase they "work" on.

  • Havoc 1 hour ago
    This only works if the environment caps the work somehow. Else there is an endless amount of problems finding their way into the plate of those with a rep for being helpful problem solvers
  • techdmn 2 hours ago
    I identify very strongly with this. More than once in my career I have gotten feedback along the lines of:

    > We really like your work! How can you help other engineers be more like you?

    The thing I think (but usually don't say) is:

    > You realize I'm like this because I often work directly against your instruction in order to satisfy my personal sense of professional pride and responsibility?

  • zhisme 1 hour ago
    giving a like for quoting Gogol and Akakiy Akakievich (I wish you could understand this russian wordplay and what's meaning about that nicknames and why they were chosen)
    • ambicapter 45 minutes ago
      > I think in Russian this is supposed to be an obviously silly name, like “Poop Poopson”.

      Is this correct? From the footnotes.

  • ChrisMarshallNY 3 hours ago
    I can relate to this. I find that I have the same issue.
  • keybored 50 minutes ago
    Yeah I see the plot here. From this one:

    https://www.seangoedecke.com/good-times-are-over/

    > In other words, your interests now conflict with your company’s interests.

    > It’s okay for your interests to conflict with your company’s. You get to decide what you care about, and what you’re willing to fight for. But when you act in ways that don’t further your company’s interests, you risk being seen as ineffective or unreliable. In 2025, that makes you vulnerable to being laid off.

    And this one:

    https://www.seangoedecke.com/a-little-bit-cynical/

    I personally don't have the mental fortitude to enjoy most things about my job. There are several reasons: 1) selfishness, my interests not aligning with optimizing shareholder value, 2) shared dysfunction, all the ways we work in bad ways that is not good for anyone, 3) the sense that we are convincing managers to shove our product down the throats of their underlings, 4) laziness and other transient states (or maybe not so transient)?)

    The Cynical article was curious to me. But just because I expected it to be Cynical in the sense that the author thought things were bad. But Cynical just meant merrily working within the gears of the professional system. Then having no complaints about it. No commentary beyond gaining both money and pleasure from aligning with optimizing shareholder value.

  • tootie 1 hour ago
    I am kinda the same only I'm not clear how the author describes useful. Being useful to my team, my employer my clients is ok but a lot of my career has been building software for businesses I did not understand and sometimes actively disliked. I'm unofficially retired after 25+ years in industry and look back at a spotty record of building anything lasting and positive. I had plenty of great teams and received praise for being effective at delivery but honestly it feels hollow in retrospect.
  • risyachka 1 hour ago
    >> But despite all that, I’m still having a blast

    This is proves its mostly over for the high income industry.

    There are no good paying jobs where you are having a blast. Otherwise there is a lot of those who want to do that job which drives wages waay down.

    High paying jobs are tough/stressful/not fun. Which was the case with software before.

    • phito 1 hour ago
      What if I'm having a blast doing the tasks no one wants to do that are in the backlog.